Boyfriend,

Thanks for willing to put up with the attitude of my sister who is always troubling you. I always believe in the sincerity of your love to me. I have you alone now. No one who knows what my feelings at this time. Thanks for willingness to sacrifice for me. I know how far you commute to the Tanjung Bungah to my home. And always there with me during difficult and happy times. Thanks for willing to spend the money for my sake and in accordance with the requirements of this I'm a bit picky. I love you. Thanks for this 7months again. :)

Sister,

We've been through so much time together. Yet I am your secret keeper. Would you. Please. Give me. Some space. To enjoy my fucking eighteen years old life? I dont hate you, but Im just dissapointed. Just bcos Im here with you all the times, hears your story like 24/7, cover you up with your problems, it doesnt mean that you can take me for granted. Please sis, Im 18, and I didnt said that Im old enough, but I knew my limits. Life is getting fucked. Dont complicate my life with your rules. Im sick of it. I dont want much. Just a little space. Not much as you get from Mama and Abah, just gimme some time to spend with my boyf, best corni, and feel like a 18 y.o bitch. I dont know whats going on earth right now. The older I am, the rules is more increasingly strict regulations that you do. and Im uber do not like it. What do you feel when you used to go out so late at night, going to the club every night and have fun with your friends but it was controlled by a man named sister now? Omg only god knows how suffer am I right now. I hate my life at this moment.

THE HARDEST PART OF A BREAK UP ARE

Changing ‘baby’ on my phone back to your real name

Hearing certain songs that remind me of you

Changing ‘in a relationship’ back to single

Looking through old memories

Hearing your name

Not getting goodmorning texts from you

No more late night conversations

Having someone to call mine

No more ‘I love you more’ fights

Telling people what happened -___-

Trying to forget and let go.

A year without rain

I spend my mondays wondering where did I go wrong. Tuesdays wishing that I could turn back time. Wednesdays hoping that you’ll come back to me. Thursdays realizing all the shits you’ve put me through. Fridays being mad and cursing you. Saturdays pretending that everythings okay & it’s time to move on. Sundays breaking down because it is IMPOSSIBLE to live without you. && Then, it’s monday all over again.

Cos I love you

She yells because she cares; she cries because she’s frustrated. She randomly smiles because she’s thinking of you, even if you’re already there. She scrunches her face because she’s about to explode, not because she’s constipated. She hits you because she wants to touch you. She stares at you because she’s infatuated. She calls every half hour because she misses you. She lectures you because she’s boss, not mom. She kisses you because she just wants to. She asks you questions because she’s curious, not to be annoying. She wants to know where you are to be with you. She calls just to hear your voice. She walks beside you to hold your hand. She sits close to you to lean on your shoulder. She stands in front of you because she wants a hug. Just face it boy; she’s in love with you.

A liar,

Sometimes people tell you they care. Sometimes people tell you they love you. Sometimes people say they want you. Sometimes people say they will catch you when you fall. Sometimes people say they will never leave you. Sometimes people say they will never hurt you. Sometimes people say they would die for you. Sometimes people say that you are worth it. Sometimes people say it’s going to be okay. Sometimes people say that you are the one sight they never tire of. And sometimes people lie.

Long Long Storyy

HE BROKE UP WITH YOU, RIGHT? AFTER TELLING YOU HE LOVED YOU AND CALLING YOU PET NAMES LIKE BABY AND CUTIE? YEAH, I KNOW HE LAVISHED YOU IN COMPLIMENTS, ONLY TO PUT HIMSELF DOWN SO YOU WOULD STROKE HIS FAKE LOW EGO. DID HE TELL YOU THAT YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL? I BET HE PROMISED YOU A PERSONALIZED SONG. OR MAYBE HE’D ALWAYS MENTION HOW HE WAS LYING IN BED AND WISHED YOU WERE THERE. HE DRAGGED “I LOVE YOU” OUT OF YOU, DIDN’T HE? YEAH, DON’T DENY IT. HE WOULD TALK TO YOU LAST THING AT NIGHT AND FIRST THING IN THE MORNING. HE CONSTANTLY MENTIONED LOSING SLEEP OVER YOU, EVERY NIGHT, BUT WE BOTH KNOW HE SLEPT LIKE A ROCK. HE MADE YOU LOVE PICTURES THAT WERE JUST SORT OF “BLEH” BEFORE. DID YOU DELETE THOSE PICTURES AFTER HE BROKE YOUR HEART? YEAH, ME TOO. ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS HATE HIM NOW, DON’T THEY? REMEMBER HOW HAPPY THEY WERE FOR YOU? THEY WARNED YOU. JUST REMEMBER, IT’S OKAY TO CRY. AND REFERRING TO HIM AS “ASSHOLE” IS PERFECTLY EXPECTED. BECAUSE, TRUST ME, YOU’LL END UP TALKING ABOUT HIM JUST AS OFTEN, IF NOT MORE, THAN BEFORE THE BREAK UP. THERE WILL BE THE “ONE TIME”S AND THE “I REMEMBER”S, AND ONCE YOU THINK YOU’RE OVER HIM, WATCH OUT. YOU BETTER KEEP YOUR EYES CLOSED IN THE HALLWAYS, BECAUSE I PROMISE YOU, THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE HIM, HE’LL BE ALL OVER SOME OTHER GIRL. A LITTLE PART OF YOU WILL WANT TO WARN HER, BUT NOBODY WILL BLAME YOU FOR HATING HER AND FOR BLAMING HER FOR YOUR PAIN. YEAH, YOU’LL COMPARE ALL GUYS TO HIM, BECAUSE ASIDE FROM THE MAN-WHORISH, HEART-BREAKER THING, HE WAS PERFECT. HE WAS EVERYTHING YOU HAD EVER WANTED. OR MAYBE YOU MADE THAT UP. MAYBE, THE SECOND HE STARTED TO SHOW INTEREST, YOU MADE UP THIS PERFECT GUY IN YOUR HEAD, AND HE JUST HAPPENED TO BE JUST LIKE HIM. LISTEN, YOU WILL FIND THE PERFECT GUY FOR YOU JUST LIKE EVERYBODY SAYS YOU WILL, AND IT WILL BE SOON. OKAY, SO I DIDN’T BELIEVE IT EITHER, BUT I’M STARTING TO.THE MOST IMPORTANT THING THOUGH IS DON’T LET HIM KNOW HE HURT YOU. DON’T LET HIM KNOW HE COULD HAVE YOU BACK IN A HEARTBEAT. DON’T GIVE HIM THAT SATISFACTION. MAKE HIM THINK YOU’RE COMPLETELY HAPPY. WHEN HE DECIDES TO WAVE AT YOU LIKE NOTHING EVER HAPPENED, WAVE BACK, SURE. BUT DON’T SMILE. MAKE HIM THINK HE MEANT AS LITTLE TO YOU, AS YOU OBVIOUSLY MEANT TO HIM.

Her ;

SHE’S THE TYPE OF GIRL WHO RESPONDS TO GUYS WHO SMILE AT HER BECAUSE SHE WANTS TO BE FRIENDLY. SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRL WHO STARES HARD AT THE BOARD WHEN SHE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT THE TEACHER IS TEACHING. SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRL WHO ACTS LIKE A KID BECAUSE SHE MISSES HER CHILDHOOD. SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRLS WHO RATHER GETS HURT BY TRUTHS THAN LIES. SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRL WHO WISHES FOR GOOD THINGS FOR PEOPLE SHE LOVES. SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRL WHO STAY LOYAL TO ONE GUY WHEN SHE LEARNS HOW TO LOVE. SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRL WHO HOLD ON TO MEMORIES EVEN IF IT HURTS. SHE IS THE TYPE OF GIRL I AM.

Forever.

THE TRUTH IS I STILL CARE AND ALWAYS WILL. I’M NOT THE TYPE OF GIRL TO LET PEOPLE WALK OUT OF MY LIFE AND PRETEND THAT THEY DON’T MATTER ANYMORE. I MAY NOT LIKE THAT PERSON ANYMORE OR TALK TO HIM OR HER BUT, I STILL CARE. I’M ALWAYS GOING TO THINK BACK TO MY LIFE AND SAY I WONDERED WHAT HAPPENED TO SO AND SO. I HOPE THEY’RE ALL RIGHT. I WILL ACTUALLY MEAN IT. THAT IS THE TYPE OF PERSON I AM. ONCE YOU’RE IN MY HEART, YOU’RE THERE FOREVER.

GRR

I hate it when people always says ‘move on’ or ‘forget him’ everytime I told them something bad happened between me and him. Its not easy to move on with life or forget someone, especially when you love him.