Miss You

I miss your hands around my waist,
I miss the way your kisses taste.

I miss your laugh and your childish grin,
I miss the way when we played a game you'd always let me win.

I miss the way you would pick me up because you knew I would put up a fight,
I miss falling asleep in your arms at night.

I miss your cute messages that would make me smile,
I miss just sitting in your truck for awhile.

I miss the way it took forever for me to leave whenever we spent time together,
I miss how we both wanted our time with each other to last forever.

I miss you making fun of me just to make me mad,
I miss the way you could always cheer me up when everything seemed so bad.

I miss our talks late at night even when you were too tired to talk,
I miss the way you'd hold my hand when we would go for a short walk.

I miss cuddling with you and holding each other tight,
I miss how we would always argue about who was right.

I miss how you would cover me up when I was cold,
I miss the feeling your hugs would unfold.

I miss you being there for me whenever I needed you,
I miss just looking into your eyes too.

I miss your lips on mine and your fingers running through my hair,
I miss the way you would always care.

I miss our days and all of the things you would do,
I miss just being there with you.

I miss your voice, your sneakers, and every little thing you do,
But most of all I miss the way I felt when I was with you.

Sorry

She spent most of that time thinking about every argument they’d had, wishing she could take that back, wishing she could take back every horrible word she ever had said to him. She prayed that he knew her words had only been spoken in anger and that they had not reflected her true feelings.

She tortured herself for the times she acted selfishly, going out with her friends when she was mad at him instead of staying with him. She chastised herself for walking away from him when she should have hugged him, when she held grudges for days instead of forgiving him. She wanted to take back every moment she knew he had been angry with her and hated her.

Then she would fall into dark deep depression; then finally build up the strength to be positive and to snap out of it for a few days. But the tiniest and simplest thing would trigger off her tears again. This was her routine. It was tiring process and most of the time she couldn’t be bothered battling with her mind. It was far stronger than her body.

Friends and family came and went; sometimes helping her with her tears, and sometimes making her laugh. But even in her laughter there was something missing. She never seemed to be truly happy; she just seemed to be passing time just waiting for something else. She was tired of existing; she wanted to live. But whats the point of living when there is no life in it

Go on, stupid

I dont belong in your precious memory

If I live another life this feelings will be repeated. It is clear now I am no longer waiting, truths are always hurting you but lies is more painful. Things are now very complicated as someone would say, but now I carry on. I wouldn't bare to face it but I have too. Our last breath together just ended, it's a burden as a blink of an eye it just kept coming. I needed you but would you feel the same? I keep on repeating the same phrase but I won't anymore. I'm sorry for those beautiful memories as I am a destroyer. I couldn't take it before but now I'm doing it willingly... Of letting this go. It is not wasted but it's a sacrifice. I wish I could call upon the day we haven't met, but nothing is a regret. Another broken heart has been claimed and zero happiness I've not gain.

Im not okay

Dont give up, okay?
I know you've been hurt, I know how it feels
Believe me, I do. But the feeling will pass,
The tears will stop falling, your heart will heal itself
I promise you it will, so hold on and dont let go, dont lose hope
I promise you'll find someone who will treat you the right way
The way he never did
Someone who will never ever leave you the way he did
He'll be worth the wait, so hang in there because I love you
And I want you to be happy

Noo you dont know him, there's never was anyone else, I only wanted him :(

(:

Never lose hope on the person you have chosen to love. If he would be the reason why your heart aches, who cares?! He’d still be the very reason why you heart beats anyway.

15 Ways (:

TO KEEP THE RELATIONSHIP WORKING

1. Love each other
2. Dont lie
3. Keep communication open
4. Stay sweet
5. When you get hurt just forgive and forget
6. Never talk about break-ups
7. Never say its okay even when its not
8. Forget about 'PRIDE'
9. If you say sorry mean it
10. Dont compare your past with your present
11. Dont talk about your stupid ex's
12. Give and take process
13. Beware of his/her feelings
14. When you had a fight, dont let the day pass
15. Dont be perfect one, be the right one

Dear B,

There wasnt anything wonderfully amazing bout him, but there was something that

She just couldnt resist

Still

I had millions of crushes - in fact, every attractive boy I gravitated towards, I wasted my mind on for a minute or two. But you, you were the only one I wasted hours, days, years on.

Its been 2months =')

I can't help myself

Its been cold summer nights since we drifted apart. Cold summer nights since you walked out that door. Cold summer nights here on my own, ‘cos i miss you baby, i need you here.

The Only Exception

You may not be his first, his last, or his only. He loved before, he may love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together, but if he can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can :)

Be strong, Diniy

28th July 2010

Lepak oldtown dgn yaya and pika, Gahh actually ramai yg nak dtg, tp sakit perot la apa la. Hesh macam2 tp kami 3orang pn rancak kot! Hee :D 3orang 1moto! Naseb la bawak malam, if ptg2 sure kena saman dah. Wakakaka gila btoiii. Tp best gila la that night, sukaaaa. xoxo
Photos will be upload soon :)

He knew it

Hah dia dah tau, I kuar ngan laki sana sini, hmph. I tatau sapa yg buat mulut kt u, but, trust me, I became like this bcos of you, bfore this I dgn u jea. But when u left me all alone, I rasa mcm nak seek of revenge la, then I start layan budk2 ur school suma, lepak mcd ngan diaorang. hesh suma tu sbb you :( I nak u realized I cant live without you, and if I can live without you pn, I dont want too. I nak u ja, I xmau laki laen, Haaaa I tau Im taking advantage kt diaorang, I made them fall for me and playing their hearts, tp I xleh nak buat apa2. Im still stuck on you. Im sorry :(

25th July 2010

Haha pukul 3am! Bad and efan dgn bad pnya estima dtg! Woahh apa masalah hampa kui 3pagi ajak kuar? Damn aku xsiap pape pn kot! Hesh, and xbleh sneakout la, my bro suma ada XD
So diaorang tggu keras kt luar rumah, haha siap nari2 suma. zzz =.='

Sorry la geng, xbrani la mau kuar, hahah. btw, estima you style gila ;D Tp kenapa xbawak ur BMW? Mesti lagi style, sukeee (><)

Exam Over

Hah today exam abeh, legaaa. Account mia exam quite tough kot, tsktsk =(
Tapi pape jela janji da abeh, Heheh. So nak celeb, ptg tu I xpegi tuition. zzzz. Pegi swimming! :D
Dgn bad, tom, hussien! Fath xbleh pegi. Ada prob apa ntah. Haish. Swimming kt hydro hotel. Wee bestttt (><) sampai kui 7 pnya duk swimming, haha. Then malam tu tatau na p mana. P khaleel, tggu tom balek rumah antar buku, last2 dia kena tahan ngan mama dia! Xbleh kuar! Bodoh btoi aih, so hussien pegi amek kreta. I ngan bad tggu keras! Haha. 30min baru smpai kreta. So pegi isi minyak, then ingt na p shisha tp da pukoi 11 da, bila shisha mau abeh, lagipn tmorrow skola, kena balek awai, Hesh. So lepak gurney ja, tngok wayang seludup pn xsmpat da. Hahah.

21th July 2010

Ingt na buat study group ACC dgn my girlss. So okay aritu stayback. Tp tatau na lepak mana. Ingt xmau pegi mcd la, cos mesti I nnt jmpa ramai kawan and xblajar. Hesh. So lepak surau skola suda.Aiyo. But sblm start, kitaorang kluar dlu pegi beli makan, sampai ja moto dpn gate skola, jmpa HIM, dia lalu dpn my school, I pn didnt noticed bout him tp pika yang bgtau, Then pika bawak smpai depan, dia da corner da, tsktsk dua2 xsedar kot that time, kawan I ja mata tajam, Hesh. Takpe la, beli makan, balek skola, makan, thn baru start study acc! 5.30 balek, ingt na pegi swimming dgn bad suma, tp penat pulak, aiyoo next time je la, malam g tuition. Balek kroh kroh ;P Anygays, RINDU YOU LAGIII :)

UK2

Exam start, gahh whv it is, it reminds me of you. Oh boy how I wish MID-YEAR exam will come back, too much memories.

Malam tu, ada study group ngan bad pfs, tom, haikal, and ada brapa orang lg tatau nama. Hahah. Mula2 bajet study kt dato kramat, tp. dgn ada playground suma. Haha apa lagi I jadi hyper la malam2, telan ecstasy la katakn. So maen la lompat2, tp time xlepas ja kena pggil bad tolong angkat, wakakak :P

Tp dah lama2, suma panas gilaaa, kami g mcd! Amek aircond sket, sambil tu leh makan mcflurry. Haha memang stdy xjadi pn! (Slalu xjadi bkn kali ni ja) then rasa mgantok gila. Balek awai, around 12am da smpai umah, haha esok skola la, tido awal =_='

P/s : Nitesssss B

17th July 2010

Hmm after tahlil, I cam rasa xsedap ati dah. So I ajak kawan2 I ciao. Cos dia tngok je apa yg I buat, gelak, cuci tgn, pegang baby. Haish and I pretend ja cm sronok tp sedeh gak kt dlm. Isk isk :(

Salam2 ngan mama aizat, ckp byebye suma, then bagi balek baby kt andy. Andy kata
Andy : Alaaa awat bagi kt andy? Bagi la kt orang ni, ayah dia (pointing to Bisyri)
HIM : (tengok ja me)
Me : Haha sudah, amek la, I na balek da, Bbye!

Otw g parking moto, jumpa PHY803. I touch moto tu, mata cm nak nanges da, tp maintain, xnak kasi kawan nmpk. I rinduuu, moto tu bawak kita to many places. T_T


Pegi mutiara heights balek, swimming. Dgn rasa sedeh, tp still senyum lagi. Okay la, I nak jmpa dia everyday, eventho it hurts. Idc! Around 7 balek, then 8 kuar balek, jumpa bad. Hmph but it's kinda hard to go out with someone, when I know, deep down, Im still in love with somebody else.

Tahlil

Having tahlil at aizat's house. Izat kata dia mau join skali. So I kata la okayy jumpa kt umah aku pukui 11, jgn lmbat, tp as usual, dia lambat, haish. So I suro dia dtg mutiara heights jela, rumah pika. Jumpa kt sana. Time call dia, I cakap la

Me : Wey ada mana ni, lambat dah
HIM : Aah na pegi dah.
Me : Tunggu dekat rumah pika trus la, eish lembap!
HIM : Err okayy

I tau tu suara dia, hmm but tatau la, then I bgtau yaya, dia baru dtg kt rumah na fetch me.
Me : Weh, aku rasa DIA ada jugk kot
Yaya : Why ckp cmtu?
Me : Cos I've felt something wrong somewhere
Yaya : Hah wait and see jela

Gahh, dah kata dah.He's coming! Hmph PHY803. I miss you too much. Brapa lama suda xtngok moto tu, tsktsk =(
Tp diaorang bgtau dia dtg bcos of me, if dia xsayang me fo sho dia xnak tngok my face anymore. Hmm idk :(

But, it seems like he sayang me lagi kot, atas road pn, dia bawak moto sbelah me, then follow blkg I, maybe takot I jatoh moto again ke ape ka bcos lepas break aritu I jatoh moto sket, Uwaaa. And I rinduuu dia gilaaaa. Time makan pn I realized memang dia tngok I. Hmph tp what cn I do. I xbrani nak kata pa2 pn. IMY baobei ;(

15th July 2010

I still remember last two months memories. :)

Tearsday Tuesday

Dpt text from you, didnt expect it. Haaaa cepatnya crita u tau =( HIM : Miss me apa, so easy kluar with other guys. Cmtu u kata rindu? Its end already la. Tp pujok pnya pujok last2 im glad la getting to know him back, thee :D Btw petang tu efan dtg kt depan my school, i tnya na pegi mana? dia kata jum p mcd, ramai ada kt sana. So I was like, hah? Dgn school uniform? Err xcomot ka? He said, no la my adek sentiasa comeiii. Puii xpa la, pegi sana, jmpa pit, jamil, akmal, amirul, izhar, azarul, syazwan, kawan2 dia lagi. Ramai kot, xlarat type. Hahah. Full of penang free school pnya budk je lah. Hesh. So I feels awkward cos I sorang ja girl. Zzzzz. And I wish B xde, cos if dia nmpk, sure dia nnt buat muka kt i, jangan la datangggggg =( Lepak2 kejap, then around 4.30 balek rumah, bukak hp, ada text from him, texting kejap, smpai kui 7, g tuition, sambil tuition sambil texting. Cos I miss him so badly. Hmph. Eventho dia da have others, sokay la, I bleh try lagi! :) You said move on, but I dont want you to be gone.T_T

12th July 2010

Ohh okay so today I ponteng.AGAIN. -_-"
But this time dgn izhar, aw aww budak yg cute and kinda hot kot. Everyones favourite! Haha. 8am I dtg mcd, then da jmpa muka dia, aww malu. Bfore this jmpa, but xpenah tegur, and now kena tegur plak, aiyo takpa I g toilet tuka baju, naek atas, tido kt mcd, aircond dia, pergh nyenyak. I loikeeee :D
Then izhar dtg, nak jugk menyibok, ingt na pegi gurney, redbox seround ke ape ke, tp cm malas plak, lgpn awal lagi, gurney pn blom bukak kot! Hesh
My bro call (bro angkt jugk) , tnya ada ktna, dia mau dtg, nak ponteng jugk! Hahah. I kata la kt mcd, dtg now. Dia dtg, tuka baju. Then beli breakfast kt I, Haa da la mcd breakfast set tu xsedap! Puii kasi kt izhar, abeh makan, maen ngan izhar pnya coffee, haha mentang2 aku menom milo je :P Buat castle la ape la. Hoho comeiii.
Around 10, pit and jamil dtg, weee comeinye pit, agaga. My bro jealous lebeh2 plak, haha.
Dorunk ajak tngok muvie, eclipse.Gahh ikot ah, even da tngok that muvie, hantam sajaa. But moto xckup, so izhar stay je kt mcd. sorry bebeh! =(
Soo balek rumah awal, haha. Sukeee ;D

Izhar, mah sugardaddyy (><)

11th July 2010

Hazwan call, kata that girl bkn awek u, petsis, i pn kenal ur petsis. Hmph bodoh betol la